Sudden realizations are abrupt and sudden! They can be about anything but they hit the most the most when they are about thyselves, for it hit me just before I began to write this blog. The intensity at which they hit you is highest at the time of occurence, however, it just fades away with time, as they say: time is the best healer. Well for me, dey keep on happening time and again, and the maximum it lasts is for a day for me. This time, however, impact would be a little more sustainable.
Cut to the chase... after a lot sulking since evening over petty issues like cud not go to the guitar class(just to join) coz mom was not home, as she was bze chit chatting wd an aunty in the neighborhood, or for not being able to do an impotant wrk fr startup coz one of my friend jst barged in wd dat daunting smile again to use my net n my lappy jst when I w abt to strt..hfff.. well da list can go on.. nez the important thing is dat what ws the realization: well after lot of head banging and sulking as mentioned previously, I suddenly realizaed dat what is dat I am sulking about, just becoz I cudnt get to the guitar classes or jst becoz I cud nt wrk for 30 mins coz my frn was bzee searching fr jobs or jst becoz my joining is still not confirmed to be on 6th oct, cud be as much delayed as two months(dat by da way was one more reason), the world doesn't end here. I mean I realized dat I ws jst wasting all the resources dat I have when most people are dying in the scarcity of even the most basics of these. Jst luk no further down the country n U hv floods( or hurricane Katrina as they say it) n everyday I see those thousands of panic sticken faces, who have probably, well surely, lost their entire savings, no means of livelihood, women dying giving births, infants who have seen the worst of their lives before even opening their eyes in this fiery world. Oh, dear lord, what was I upset over, there is a lot more misery in the world den I can even think aboout n yet we find reasons to keep ourselves upset. And when I dug further down, I found may be I dont deserve all of this if I cant make a gud use of it.
That was the maximum it hit me, but I recovered quickly from this blow and have decided to make my life more fruitful and useful from nw on. I hope dat the miseries of all those people in Bihar end soon..
Well, dat was about my own self realization that had happened yeaterday and I feel good dat I didnt post this yesterday, coz today I found a new victim of self-realization in my one of the close frnz. Although she has been a regular n most easy prey of sudden self realization(SSR), dis time I wd say my understanding of the causes of her SSR did not lend me newhr. After innumerous efforts of making her realize dat life is jst da way it is n u shd jst chill n njoi, I gave up. The reason fr my failure in making her understand the causes were simple as usual: her own understanding of the causes of SSR is far more resolved and crystal clear. I think I have confused u in a gud way n dat dis new SSR of mine compels to me stop rt nw, without adding to nemore confusions, I declare the post closed.
Njoy :P
